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DOOR, 2020


FUCKING VOICE TRAINING AGAIN, 2020

fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again

it feels really weird for me

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it feels really weird for me

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it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me
it feels really weird for me

it feels really weird for me

it feels really weird for me

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fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again
fucking voice training again

fucking voice training again



INCANTATION, 2020

i gaze and find my own eyes staring back at me. have you ever wished to gaze upon something beautiful? have u ever wished to gaze upon yourself without a second guess? i find myself in constant repetition of movements. the pelvis can only rotate so far before there is pain but i want to see her staring back to me in harmony with my thoughts. the perfect equilibrium with mind and body, woman in body.

woman embody (x4)

feminization (x3)


you can gaze into the mirror and feel peace. you can gaze into the mirror and feel whole. you can gaze into the mirror and manifest what you wish to see. you can gaze into the mirror to feel beautiful. you can gaze into the mirror to find joy. you can gaze into the mirror to find vanity.

i absolve my gaze of bringing me pain. i absolve my gaze of bringing me self hatred. i absolve my gaze of comparison. i absolve my gaze of violence on oneself. i absolve my gaze of criticism. i absolve my gaze of poison.

woman embody (x4)

feminization (x3)

i will gaze into the mirror to find joy. i will gaze into the mirror to find peace. i will gaze into the mirror to feel whole. i will gaze into the mirror to see the perfect equilibrium of mind and body. i will gaze into the mirror to see beauty.

i will gaze into the mirror to see that my joy could not possibly be placed into the narrow confines of idealism.
i will gaze into the mirror to see that my joy could not possibly be placed into the narrow confines of idealism.
i will gaze into the mirror to see that my joy could not possibly be placed into the narrow confines of idealism.
i will gaze into the mirror to see that my joy could not possibly be placed into the narrow confines of idealism.
i will gaze into the mirror to see that my joy could not possibly be placed into the narrow confines of idealism.



MOMMY, 2018

hello my name is olivia you can fucking suck it there fuck you for everything i hate you and everything i hate you you just live your fake life take it all i'm out bye you will never know love yourself do it i hate you i hate everyone your drinking is getting out of control stop calling my friends whatever you don't have a clue you are wrong in so many ways i hope someday you know bye ezra i am olivia i am olivia olivia olivia olivia i am olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia olivia i need to talk to you tonight i have something important to tell you call me as soon as you get this i know you saw the stuff on my bed i didn't even hide it because i wanted to tell you about it i just didn't know how i got a pill at the show the other night from an old friend i kept that pill contemplating if i should do it or not i went to the pharmacist and told him i needed a clean needle and he gave those along with a red biohazard box i didn't use the pill there are no more i wanted to tell you i swear i just know how badly it will hurt you it hurt me too believe me i'm not going to use again it was a huge mistake i haven't felt good about anything since i know you are upset but i really need to talk to you and i need your support as hard as that may be i'm not craving it at all i just want to work through this and not let this slip keep me fucked up i'm going to bed i work a double tomorrow i'm really sorry please don't shut me out please don't shut me out please don't shut me out please don't shut me out please don't shut me out please don't shut me out please don't shut me out please don't shut me out i'm sorry mommy i don't want to shut you out i'm sorry mommy i don't want to shut you out i'm sorry mommy i don't want to shut you out but i have to i have to i have to i'm hurting i'm hurting i'm hurting i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to shut you out i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to i have to shut you out i have to i have to i have to i'm sorry mommy i have i have to i have to i love you i'm sorry i have to i have to i have to i'm sorry mommy i love you i have to shut you out



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